I am already sleepy but you know I still have many things to do. It is a weekend, a Sunday at that! Well, I have been late for almost everyday of the week last week because I had to iron the clothes that I will wear for that day. I will not let that happen again or should I say, I must not. Really, I need a maid! Weekend is supposed to be quality time but it only goes to doing household chores.
Yes, my body told me to stop. It is not that I am procrastinating once again but I am just tired. I pushed myself that hard and my overtime hours can tell. Still, I am behind schedule or maybe I just projected a time that is not realistic to reach. Anyways, it is a learning experience. From now on, I will really set a target that is at least 20% longer to give buffer to unexpected events.
I have been really pretty busy lately. I do not have time to do Facebooking, Twittering and even Blogging. I think it has been the longest that I have not updated this blog. Oh, since August 27, it was quite sometime. Yes, you can say that I have not really been successful yet in my time management. Well, it is hard to manage time really when other people also try to get your time.
Anyways, my Boss said that I just have to note everything down… that I must really try to do religiously. It is also tedious doing that especially that our nature of work involves multi tasking.
Sometimes, I feel that there is no equal distribution of workload in the office. Other people are more busy than the others. Well, maybe I should be thankful when I am very much loaded? Besides, I really do not know what the others are working on or how hard their jobs are. That is the difference of my present job from my previous one. In the latter, we have the same kind of work. Thus, it is very easy to tell who is not working or is loaded.
Son sick again. The usual cough and colds due to change of weather or he caught it somewhere? Expenses in meds again? That is the least of my worry. My worry is his health. I really hope and pray that he get well soon. I left home with a heavy heart knowing that he needs me to take care of him. But, Mommy has to work.
I did not attend our very first real team building. What are my reasons of not attending? My son got sick last week. The organizers were asking us to decide right away and I just told them that I will not attend because my son is sick. They accepted my decision. I know that they understand.
So, I got my performance appraisal last Monday. Was it okay? Well, looking at the 3s and 4s, generally okay. Maybe, I just believe in myself too much–that is where the disappointment comes in or my boss just has high standards? Well, one thing, commitment is never enough. You have to be equipped with skills too. Well, did I not work hard or just focused on the wrong things? Did I help other people too much that I forgot to help myself?
Anyways, I am on vacation leave today and I have time to reflect. I am assigned with quite a big task considering that it is just my second year as a Business Analyst. But then again, it is not in the tenure but in the performance. I will continue to do my best as I always will but then again, I have to couple it with conviction and skills and expertise… I have to do it and prove to myself that indeed, I am one of the bests.
As I always say, to God be the Glory. If He will look at my performance and would rate me, I guess, I really did not perform that much. I seek for His Guidance every time and to give me more gray matter and brain cells to perform to the best of my abilities.