What do I like to write today? I committed an error. However, with the grace of God, the error did not affect anyone but me. Well, I cannot really divulge the details here because it is confidential.

I thank God today for His blessing. For making me feel His Holy Spirit, reminding me to be more humble and kinder in my ways. I am not great. I can commit errors that maybe some people will take against me–I wholeheartedly accept the error. I ask forgiveness and I think I need to forgive myself as well.

Think before you write

I am thinking if I should write this. Well, in FB or instagram or in Twitter, it is encouraged to Think before you Click. How about in Blogging? Think before you write?

Writing has always been my stress reliever. When I did not have computer yet nor internet connection, I had this notebook where I wrote many things. I had poems, phrases, even a song! Well, I do not have that notebook anymore as it was washed away by the flood.

So, what am I stressing about? Work, work, work. Anyways, I know that I should not be stressed out when it comes to work or else, I would end up a loser, right? Inhale, exhale!!!

Okay, I received a news today that I will have a new boss and a new task. Well, I know that I will be able to do my best but still, can I just have my existing Boss? My higher Boss, said No…get out of my comfort zone…opportunity to grow, etc… Inhale, exhale…Lots of prayers too. Dear God, please forgive me for not being so good today and for committing mistakes. Please guide me and always protect me. Amen.

Then, on my existing workload…that I think I should not be doing… oh, well…some people can really be so cruel and out of reason…”May pinagdadaanan?” That person might be in a bad mood that is why she is like that? Oh, she is always like that! Inhale, exhale!!!…lots of prayers too. Dear God, please help me to have more patience and understanding and let me not be affected by trials like this. I hope that she forgives me too if she saw that I was disappointed with her. Amen.

Okay, I am fine now. I have written it all? To post or not to post? Well, this is a blog. She does not know about this blog. If in the future she might stumble upon this, then maybe she will just laugh at it. Anyways, this is just how I feel right now. I have no ill feelings towards her. Yes, it is just job. I will just let it pass. Tomorrow is another day.

Dear God, Thank You for today. You are the Greatest God. I entrust all things to You, oh Lord. Amen.

Teacher niece

I am so proud if my niece! She is going to be a teacher someday! She is currently doing her internship and she is enjoying it. Now, I must buy this tascam dr-44wl for her. Well, she can record her year of internship as a memory. She is into music too. I think it is her minor. I know that she will be very successful.

Learn, read and write

Being new at the job and in the field of Business Analysis, I am constantly trying to know more about it. I found ITIL v3 2011 pdf and I will check first in our office library if we already have this. Continuous learning is really is really important if you want to improve your craft, right? And, yes, practice makes perfect. How can you practice if you do not have the knowledge and skill? So, learn, learn,learn. Read, read, read. Write, write, write. :)

The Appraisal

So, I got my performance appraisal last Monday. Was it okay? Well, looking at the 3s and 4s, generally okay. Maybe, I just believe in myself too much–that is where the disappointment comes in or my boss just has high standards? Well, one thing, commitment is never enough. You have to be equipped with skills too. Well, did I not work hard or just focused on the wrong things? Did I help other people too much that I forgot to help myself?

Anyways, I am on vacation leave today and I have time to reflect. I am assigned with quite a big task considering that it is just my second year as a Business Analyst. But then again, it is not in the tenure but in the performance. I will continue to do my best as I always will but then again, I have to couple it with conviction and skills and expertise… I have to do it and prove to myself that indeed, I am one of the bests.

As I always say, to God be the Glory. If He will look at my performance and would rate me, I guess, I really did not perform that much. I seek for His Guidance every time and to give me more gray matter and brain cells to perform to the best of my abilities. :)

Get the faith back

I did pray last night for time to slow down. I guess I could not keep up with this agile world. I need to rebuild my strength. I need to regroup. I have tons of things to do and I am at lost. Oh, it is not me. What to do? I have to get focused again. I have to close my eyes then open it in one direction. I have to have that determination. I have to let go of other things.

One thing more, I have to get that faith back..

Big decision

When you are not happy anymore with what you are doing, you stop and think back. You ask yourself, what should I really be doing right now?

Choosing a career is one of the big decisions you have to make in life. Yes, there are always chances that you change that from time to time but that would not really be a good thing. I got thinking about this as I see so many graduates again and many employment ads asking them to apply and make their first step towards real life.

I could still remember when I was in their shoes. In College, I wore white as my daily outfit. Yes, medical uniforms! I took a medical allied course. I can actually be a doctor if I wanted to or if I still had that madness to study. Anyways, it just got me thinking… I guess, I really have to make that turn again.